Underneath

So we're coming up on the halfway mark of my homestay here in Boston, and a lots been going on. Most of my time has been devoted to the Knights, whom I babysit for quite often. My other time has been taken up by a few special people (IE Gabie and Snake, hahaha). I've come to a realization about a lot of shit, especially with regards to myself. It's funny to come back to home and see the ridiculous amount of drama and politics that still lingers between people here This was shit I thought I'd see fizzle out at the end of highschool, yet is still happening. People want to know why (especially in highschol) I used to act weird and totally out going, it was because there was no way in hell I was going to let these people know the real me. At least if I was never really accepted being goofy that I could play off the goofiness. I would just take it too deeply if they knew what is really me. I still do that a lot today. There are very few people in Chicago who I really open up to, and the reason why is simple. I don't want to subject myself to all that bullshit.

In other news, the vacation is going quite well. 90% of the time when I've been hanging out with someone, it's been my brother. We've been on pretty good terms while I've been here. He's helping me develop fights for the National Fight Directors Workshop. It feels really good exposing him to this level of stuff, you can tell he's really interested and its serving as a good motivator. He's got so much potential, and I really don't want to see him fuck up like some one we know (I won't say any names, but if you're in the loop I'm sure you've heard by now). I really wish that I could spend more time with my dad though. I'm gonna be up in a few hours to head over to his house for the day (probably to work).